What's In My Head

Today I have four (4) predominantly recurring thoughts swimming around my head. Other thoughts come and go but those niggle and stay around, coming to the surface ever so often

The first is that my sister is coming to visit me on the 21st of March. I try not to think about it because I get so excited that I can't sit straight. I can't wait to see her. I'm planning the things we will do and the places we will go. I got her an Oyster card, I copied my keys and I bought an Aero bed. I have a list of things she likes so I can get them from the grocery. I'm just too damn excited.

The second is how exciting relationships are when they are new. I'm not talking about just love relationships, even friendships. You start talking to someone and you're all unsure because you like them and think they're cool but you're not sure how they feel and you don't know if you're talking to them too much and they think you're annoying but then you don't want to be too nonchalant. It's just all very exciting. And then for the Internet there's always that feeling of "Is this person real?" or is it some freak hiding behind a keyboard. And then you speak to them and you're excited or you get a text and you're all happy. Newness is fun...

My third thought is about my hair. It smells like sunshine. And no, I did not just make that up. On Monday I was on the bus and I felt the person behind me leaning in really close. So I turned around all "What the hell?" and the man who was invading my personal space smiled at me. A really nice happy smile and said "I was smelling something amazing. And it's your hair. It smells like sunshine". And at first I was traumatised and all disturbed (The man was smelling my hair after all) like how I get when pervy strangers speak to me. But more and more I think it's cute, not pervy. And his smile. It was so genuine. I'm still thinking about the incident. And frig man, my hair really does smell awesome. I have a new shampoo.

The final thought swimming about in my head is about a REAL pervert. ThePrince has announced that this weekend we will be going on another football related coach trip. Which is fine. The last one, wasn't bad at all once I got into the spirit of things. My only problem is that as with last time, we will not be making this trip alone. Two of his friends (all Trini alpha males) will be accompanying us. And one of those two friends is absolutely fine but the other is a total perv.

The last trip was very last minute and we ended up staying in a sort of boarding house. There was a long corridor with rooms on either side and 3 bathrooms - on either end of the corridor and in the middle. Our room was closest to the one on the end and his room was closest to the one in the middle. I was coming out of our bathroom and he was leaving his room to go to his bathroom and he didn't go about his business like a normal person. He stood there, in the middle of the corridor, looking at me in my towel until I found the keys, opened our room door and rushed inside. I felt naked like he was undressing me with his perverted eyes.

And there were other things for the rest of the weekend. He never touched me but he'd be speaking to someone else, even ThePrince and looking right at me. If I was quiet he would ask me a question. Then, he said to me "I always think that there is something about a woman that makes a man want to give up all his freedom and marry her. What is it about you?". Mostly, though he just looked at me. Stared. And I know that stare. It made me uncomfortable. I couldn't withstand it. I looked away. I blushed.

Everything about him is feline - his beautiful grey eyes, his smile like the fat cat that got the cream and the way he runs his tongue over his teeth in between thoughts like he is thinking about eating me. I really don't like it.

And so I went to ThePrince and I told him about it and he said "Yeah, everybody know he is a nasty man. But wha' yuh worryin' 'bout? Ah right here. Nuttin will happen. It eh have no law against watchin' "

But I think there is a law. Your friends, out of respect for you are just not supposed to ogle or act like they desire your significant other. To me that is just wrong.